Wordless Wednesday

Happy Birthday to Me!

Wow! This is the first time I have EVER forgotten my birthday.

I woke up this morning to find a huge horribly wrapped box and a small bag with my name on it.

I was confused. Than my brain screamed... "OMG it's my birthday!"

The horribly wrapped box was from Devin.

He knows that I love when he wraps my presents, even though he hates doing it,

he wraps them for me:]

SO anywho, he bought me a brand new printer!

I know what your thinking, A printer???

Yes, a printer. I have been asking for one FOREVER.

I needed it so bad for my Etsy shop.

Printing my fabric labels and tags.

Oh how wonderful it is to have a printer.

Oh! and Olive got me photo printing sheets!

Because my printer is a picture printer, a regular printer and a scanner.

Can you tell that I know nothing about this stuff?

But if Devin bought it for me than it is the best item for me.

He is great at buying electronics and understanding what all the geek speak means.

But I see a pattern...

Last birthday I got a pink DS

For Christmas I got my HP laptop

For mother's day I got my new Canon powershot

and now for my birthday the printer.

It's really funny because you usually by other people the type of gifts you want to receive.

You see I could live without all this high tech stuff

He can not.

Yet I do not buy him electronics for gifts.

I never have. I think it is a weird gift to give someone.

I get him things like, clothes and small gadgets

and I always make him a birthday breakfast.

Bacon, biscuits and gravy, pancakes, eyes and potatoes.

It is a lot of food but it's one day a year right?

Any who, it's my birthday today! 20 years old.

That is 2 whole decades.

Pretty crazy!

Devin and I already went out for my birthday dinner last week.

Cheesecake factory. Seems to be tradition.

I love that place.

ANNND it was kid-free.

We dropped Olive off at her Great Aunt's for 4 hours.

(Which was kinda horrible for me. I had a panic attack, felt like someone was squeezing my chest)

But Devin helped me relax, plus I knew Olive would be having lots of fun with her three cousins.

She loves them so much, gives them hugs and follows them around.

It is adorable. And they are so good with her.

Explaining things to her and not yelling when she knocks down their legos.

She is very sweet to everyone.

Makes me proud.

Well I am going to go enjoy my birthday

Meaning I will do nothing different and continue to cook and clean

and oh I have some laundry to do and I need to deep clean the bathroom.

Oh and sew up a couple of shoes, 6 to be exact.

Happy Birthday to MEEE!

:]

Olive's first...(Long Post)

These are pictures of Olive's "firsts"

They are not all in order.

Olive's first breath of air

Olive's first "Burrito Wrap"

Olive's first hat

Olive's first I.V.

Olive's first bed

Olive's first burp (right before this picture)

Olive's first bottle, fed by her Daddy

Olive's first surgery (in i.c.u. to recover and wake up)

Olive's tending her Daddy's 20th birthday

First time Olive and Devin fell asleep together

Olive's first admision back into the hospital after coming home

Olive's first massage in the e.r. :)

Olive's first antibiotic drip through i.v.

Olive's first bath in a throw up bucket (many more after this)

Olive's first time lifting her head

Olive's first 3am bottle feed my her daddy

Olive's first photoshoot thingy

Olive's first photo contest entry

 (which she won! 100 dollar Babies r us gift certificate)

Olive's first picnic

Here's to putting it all in the past.

I don't hate because it doesn't make sense to do so.

I don't regret because I love the person it's made me.

 Instead I'll forgive and completely forget.

 Because I know that I have so much better, and my life lacks nothing.

I am officially putting the past where it belongs, in the past.

Here's to completely enjoying the wonderful life I live.

You're my everything Olive-Lyn

And I promise to be everything you need me to be.

I will never push you away or see you hurt.

I will always be here when you need me.

Today until forever.

Devin, I would be nothing without you.

Thank you for helping me through all of this.

You're the most wonderful man I have ever met,

and I feel incredibly safe in your arms.

Thank you for encouraging me to take my life back

and to let go of all the hurt.

I love you more than words could say.

YAZ IS CRAP

Before I had Olive I was on a birth control pill called YAZ.
 I honestly liked it. It helped with my acne and leveled out my moods,
 little did I know it was not only, not doing it's job
 (I got pregnant while taking Yaz, but am not mad at all now as Olive is the most precious gift)
but it was also DESTROYING MY BODY.

There is something wrong with me. I have had SOO many problems since the birth of Olive,

and just found out it is all because of YAZ.

I might be getting my Galbladder removed and put on meds for the rest of my life.

The worst part, I might not be able to have any more babies.

This is so depressing. I was meant to be a Mom.

I thought I would have at least have 3 or 4 more children but I might not even have one more.

How horrible of a feeling is it to have that taken away?

One thing I am glad about... I had Olive in time.

She is my everything.

Going to the Doctor today to get results from numerous tests.

I am just full of hatred.

The makers and distributers of Yaz are no good in my book.

They can all go to hell.

Daddy's Day Off

(Devin and Olive around 3 months)

When Devin has a day off it is a special day. He hardly has a full day off of both jobs and school.

But when he does, Olive is glued to him at every minute.

 I have mentioned before that she is a Daddy's girl, but I just don't think that sums it up.

Everything about her Daddy, she loves.

Especially when he takes her out for a carb filled lunch i.e. Mac'n'cheese

 with chocolate milk and chips with salsa.

(Refusing to use her spoon)

I do not condone this.

I suggested she get broccoli and water but it was Daddy's day off.

-Special day-

(Sweet potato puffs)

(Picking up Daddy's tips means she get a tall ice water)

(There is just something about Starbucks' water- haha)

( Walking with her Dad)

(He surprises her with a 'lift off' and she giggles her butt off)

Sickness

Well Olive has a kidney infection. Which is normal for her.

She actually feels no pain when she has Kidney infections as she was born with one.

When a baby is born with pain, than to their body, it is normal.

 Meaning she feels no pain in her kidney's that aren't caused by surgery.

 At least this is how her Doc explains it.

It seems very plausible because Olive never reacts to having kidney infections.

 The only thing that bothers her is the fever that comes along with it.

But to other people she seems "normal" while a kidney infection has ahold of her.

Sleeping helps. Sleep is when she fights off all those evil germs in her ureters and bladder.

So she has been sleeping a lot. The Tylenol has a part in all the sleep.

It's funny because when I explain to people why she is fussy,

"Oh she has a kidney infection and her fever is getting to her."

They always look at me funny. As if I am not doing what I should be doing with a sick child.

Bundling her up, holding her, keeping her indoors.

PSHHH! Olive has on average, 2 kidney infections a month.

But what people on the outside don't understand is that there is no way to treat her Kidney infections.

You see if her Doc put her on anti-biotics every time she got one,

Well her kidneys would be in worst shape than they are now.

So I am doing what any other mom in my situation would do,

help her have a normal life. She would be inside, bundled most of her life

 if I acted the way others wanted me to. She has a right to be a normal child.

A right to run and play at the park with other kids.

Why would I take that from her if it isn't harming her?

I wouldn't.

Yep, so Olive has another Kidney infection which means....

Delayed surgery. Yes Sir. It is upsetting because I was preparing myself

and now I have to wait longer. But her being healthy before the surgery is a HUGE thing.

One thing I am glad about- Olive getting kidney infections at her age now

is so less dangerous than when she was a baby.

This makes my heart warm.

This means she does not need to be rushed to the E.R. at 3 am

to be hooked up to anti-biotic drips and poked hour after hour

by those mean nurses.

I love my daughter so much and I am so glad she is so strong.

She truly is a miracle. She brings so much light into my life.

Without her I am not sure what I would be today.