Wholey Moley!

I went to the Wholey Moley sale while it was still going on at Old Navy and got some cute stuff for cheap! They were offering 30% off of everything in store and online. I was surprised at how little people showed up, the store was like normal. I would have bogged about it sooner but I didn't have my camera to take pics of the cute stuff we bought. But I manged to take a pic of Olive's new flip flops last night with Devin's IPhone. We got lots of stuff and only spent 18 dollars. Here's what we got...

I of course had to get 2 pairs of flip flops!!

Olive got her second Old Navy onsie-

next year we will have to get a t-shirt because she is growing fast!

And we got two pairs of baby flip flops,

she wears size 6

These are so nifty because they have the back

so that they don't slip off.

We got her this pair

A solid blue color

And another pair that are brown with pink flowers.

She loves them!

And we got her this "jersey"

Successful shopping trip :]

Late night celebration

Devin bought some sparklers and other fun stuff on the way home from school so we decided to play with them tonight since the next two night he will be busy. Here are some pictures of the fun (Taken by Devin's IPhone) Computer is still in the hospital. :(

White sparkler

Olive in awe

On of those tank sparklers

This was suppose to be a blue sparkler, I say BOO!

The red sparklers put off lots of smoke

And my cute Booga Wooga of course!

(The stork bite in the middle of her forhead still hasn't gone away)

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Anti-social

Well the 4th of July is coming up and as usual Devin will be working BOTH jobs that day. Meaning I will only see him for about an hour for his lunch and that's it. I am ok with this, as is he, because he gets time and a half plus Sunday pay. This will help out with some money issues we are having this month but I will defiantly miss him on the 4th.\

I was invited to spend the 4th with Devin's family, as I always am when holidays roll around. I just feel so weird going to one of Devin's family gathering without him. You can defiantly say that I am anti-social. I use to be able to start a conversation with anyone and feel confident going into large groups of people but my weight has caused me to be less confident. So Olive and I won't be going to the family function on the 4th, instead we will watch a movie and eat some food, but just do our normal thing.

She is too young to even remember this so I don't feel much pressure to make it 'grand'. I do feel pressure however from his family. I feel bad saying "Thanks for the invite but I'm just staying home" because I feel as if I am being rude. My anti-social-ness does not care though, I would rather not be forced to socialize. Plus I would have to hitch a ride with the MIL making my 'get-away' difficult. I would have to stay there the whole time she is there (and she is the last to leave at family gatherings)  I am not sure if they understand why I don't come. But it's not something I worry about too much. I do wish sometimes that Devin didn't have to work so much, we hardly ever see him.

Tonight will be our "4th of July" celebration. Devin has half of the day of, he actually just came in the door!!

Well happy 4th of July to everyone!

Some words that brightened my day

"Woman was born to create...in creating she becomes herself, accomplishes her destiny. Her whole life is only an initiation into creative power. To create is not merely to produce a work...it is to give out ones own individuality."


-Jeanne De Vietinghoff

Potty Training

With all the extra time on my hands because of the incident, I have been doing things that have been on my list for a while but didn't get done because there were more important things to do instead. Yesterday I spent about 5 hours reading up on potty training and I think I have a good plan.

After Olive's surgery on the 20th of July, I will start potty training her. The method we will be using is the "no underwear method". Meaning Olive will wear nothing on her bottom while at home. And until she is potty trained she will go nowhere. So I guess the no underwear of diaper or even pull ups is a method that works very well. It is suppose to make them feel icky if they don't use the toilet. We have tile and wood at our house (expect for the game room which she is not even allowed in) so I think it will be good to try this method. I am suppose to keep her under ware and pants off for a week after she gets it. If she happens to poop or pee it will be an easier clean up than carpet. Her doctor mentioned this at her 9 month appointment but of coarse I was not even thinking about it then.

I found the toilet I want to use for her also. It is from one of my favorite brands Boon Inc.  

This thing is so nifty! I am so excited to buy it and open it up! There are three colors, blue, pink and green, but of coarse we had to choose green! This potty is so freakin cool. So when it is closed it just looks like a container of some sort but when you open it, it is plain to see what it is used for. There is a "drawer" that holds the waste and is easily removed with a cool handle and orange release tab. There are two compartments on each side. One for odds and ends. I will be putting disinfecting wipes, wet wipes and paper towels in that side. And on the other side there is a toilet paper holder!

Cool right!?

This nifty potty also doubles as a step stool! Great for washing dirty little hands afterward. And just like all of Olive's other toys and gadgets, I will be saving it and using it for the next Saenz baby that we have.

As for a treat or motivation for her to use the potty I have decided on Smarties. Those powdered candy tabs that come in a plastic wrap tube. They are super cheap and not too sweet. I will award her with one smartie for peeing and two smarties for a poop. I have already bought a container for them :)

It might sound weird but I am super excited to start this potty training thing. I can't wait to get her out of those diapers!

My Foot Hurts

.... so bad.


Sadface

Emergency Room

-I broke my ankle-

Yep, yesterday at 3 pm I was running inside to get a plate because the burgers were done cooking. I was wearing flip-flops... ummm hmmm. I guess there was some water on the floor from me washing dishes, I hit the wet spot, my foot went in and I stepped down hard, heard and felt a crack than went down. I brought my plates with me. It wouldn't be a true Cassie accident without a few broken somethings... The pain was pretty bad. I don't remember all the times that I cut off my finger, split my tongue in half, hit my chin and my tooth went through my lip... I don't remember the pain during all of those. But I am guessing I will remember this pain for the rest of my life.

I laid on the floor just screaming, pretty much. Olive was screaming because Mommy was screaming. When I realized what had happened and saw Olive freaked out, I stopped and took a breath. Devin came over and saw that my ankle was stuck all the way to the inside. I couldn't move it and it had already begun to swell and turn purple. I guess "Mom" mode kicked in, I stopped thinking about how bad it hurt and talked Devin through what to do calmly.

"Put Olive in her crib, turn off the stove and the grill. Pack the diaper bag, don't forget her bottle and a diaper! When the diaper bag is packed, come get me and help me get to the car. Then go back for Olive."

Devin told me this morning that the whole time while I was laying on the floor and on the way to the ER, I was humming, "It hurts so bad, it hurts so bad, it hurts so bad" I guess I did it to keep from screaming, I didn't want to scare Olive again.

Poor thing was still shaken up while driving to the hospital. Long story short, I was in the ER for 11 hours and the first 6 of them were pain pill free. I kept asking for a pain pill of some sort and they kept saying, sure sure I'll go get one. The ER was a bit crazy because of a car accident. Now I understand the order of things. And maybe I wasn't at the top of the "help now" list but I would have really liked a pain pill. It was torture.

But now I am home...in pain still. Vicodin is in my system but it doesn't seem to help much. I couldn't sleep hardly at all last night. I would wake up from the pain and I wasn't able to go back to sleep.

My poor baby is still iffy about Momma. She constantly wants hug and kisses my leg often. When I am on my crutches she freaks out, not sure why, she just runs from me and cries :( Last night when Devin and I got home Maria was here watching Olive. I hoped in the door and Olive ran to me and hugs my good leg. I am always with Olive. 24/7 since she was brought home from the NICU. Devin and I have gone out a couple times but not often AT ALL. So to see her miss me and run to me when I got home just warmed my heart. I missed her like crazy in the ER.

I went straight to my bed and she followed. She climbed up on the bed with "The Stinky Cheeseman" and handed me the book. I read to her while Devin went to the pharmacy. When I was done reading a section, she took the book and read to me. SO cute. Then she climbed up on my chest, gave me three kisses, on both cheeks and on my lips, laid down on my chest and pulled the blanket over her. I held her and she went right to sleep. I was a nice ending to a bad day. I love that girl.

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night's sky are shouting stars: I could really use a wish right now.

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

Lately, I have been extremely grateful of my relationship with God. I struggle, on a daily basis, with who I am. I have been turned away so many times and left to pick myself up and carry on with no support. At most of those times I have looked up, to God, and asked why this has happened once more. I was angry with him, as if he did this to me or as if he didn't stop the things that happened. He just smiles and reminds me that I am his child and that he will always love me, even when no one else does and that everything that happens in my life is for a reason. It gives me peace to think of the love God has for me. It helps me to carry on. To pick myself up, out of the gutter, clean myself off and start again. I know, no madder what happens in my life, that I will always have God with me. Watching me as I choose my path, nudging me along. But right now it is not me that needs help, it is my daughter. Her life is in the hands of a doctor that I trust so much. Still I turn to God and ask him to watch over her. To hold her hand through the whole process. To send a special angel to stay by her side. Nothing can happen to her. I fear if something does happen, my relationship with God would be in trouble. I need him to help me, to help her. He can not fail me this time. I need him and I need her. She is my everything.

Please pray for my daughter, Olive. Especially on the 20th of July. I can not imagine a world without her.

Barbie

I broke down and bought Olive a 5 dollar Barbie. We chose one that looked like her, olive skin, dark brown hair. I am not sure how I feel about Barbie and her figure but I guess if Olive enjoys playing with her than it is all good with me.

But for the record I am iffy about Barbie... she gives me the creeps. No one is that skinny. No one!

(This is where a cute photo of Olive

 and her barbie would be posted

 but my camera is still broken, sad, I know)